Troubled Thoughts......

As i Thoughtfully search countless reasons on why i feel this way when your around me.

I tune things down

looking inside the mirror of my thoughts....

........and i notice,
I see the same repetitive images you would see if you were in a mirrored room.

the only thing i think of is you,
when your around or when something reminds me of you.

That one reminder is the "LOVE" you have towards the world around you and for others.

As we use to be,

I miss the way i use to hold you,

It felt as if you healed me and made me a different person when i was with you.

I miss that new feeling I had for you......

as I gazed into your eyes.

Now as it drastically halted over night. that new me seemed to vanish, escaping through the hole you once kept secured.

Now that I see you, (but in a different way) "I Hurt" as if i lost that one feeling forever, that wont feel again. as i want to. i don't know how to puzzle things back together if i cant read a complex language that you give me.

Well i kinda feel this way for a long time, I'm just now posting it. its just a free write. hope you hear me out for a change..